TO WRITE.. TO STAY ALIVE..

TO WRITE.. TO STAY ALIVE..

The only thing that keeps me alive up till now is to WRITE. I Love Writing so much. WRITING is the biggest part of my life, its my natural brain remedy. As long as there's still a freedom to speech and i can Write.. I don't care about anything, any opinion, all that does not matter to me.. i just love to write and write and write.. I'm writing whenever and wherever i could. I hoped that someday my written-works could be useful for humanity goodness.

All i can say is..

The only thing that keeps me steady and helped me up to 'feel' and still alive up till' now is to WRITE. 

- B. Stephen Lee -

FALL IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT with someone, IS IT REALLY DOES EXIST??

FALL IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT with someone, IS IT REALLY DOES EXIST?? (Written in early May 2014 by me, old diary aight)

Would i believe in it? Yes i think it does exist.. I have once experience it.. Just recently.. Just.. my bad luck, it doesn't ended up well for me.. And it's really hard to forget and desperatingly break a heart if the reciprocity from that 'someone else' is Ignorance..

YES! LOVE AT FiRST SIGHT, IT DOES EXIST!

It could be anywhere, anytime, any place..

But it all depends on the person you fell in love with to be as whole as LOVE..

If not..if you get a bad reciprocity from that person you fell in love with.. 

Well its your bad luck..

So sad huh.. : ( 

haha. My bad.. My bad..

Vegetarian: Body & Soul Purification

Body & soul Purification..#Detox .. Veggies for dinner!!!! Hehe i'm back 80% like the old days, i'm reviving my old broken promise.. #Vegetarian and 'the enlighten' way of life.. Namo Amitabha 🙏

Journey to be a better person

Journey to be a Better Person:

I'm glad if i could help people without expecting anything back in return. May my dedication to the nature will help me gain good karma through life. This Today morning will be one of many step for my better future.. Set my goal! Concentrate and do well.. 100 IBT is the target! Concentrate and Perfect!

Don't Take Someone Else Moodiness Lightly! (Bipolar Info)

DON'T TAKE MOODINESS AS A JOKE

Guys, if you know someone whether its your family, friends, spouse, bestfriend, etc with heavy Mood-Swing.. Please please please i beg you guys don't take this lightly.. Coz' they could be a Bipolar person. And those who have Bipolar should be treated and supported very cautiously or you could ended up losing them.. ps:THIS IS SERIOUS

Please always support those person with Bipolar (extreme mood-swing) as they need your cheerish support and happy environment for they to live on..Don't ever joke about their moodiness as because they never lie about their mood condition (its how their brain works and treatment for sure could make their brain more stable and healthy,hence good Neurologist,Psychiatric,&Psychologist could always help them).

Please Please guys don't take Bipolar as a Joke and Lightly,don't you feel shameful to think this case as a joke?? only if you are a sociopath if you ever think this case as a joke coz you have no EMPATHY towards other human being! 

if you knew someone with Bipolar,please support them to live their heavy life.. Or you could ended up losing them forever. 

So please do always support BIPOLAR SUFFERER

PS: The writer is Bipolar sufferer too since writer a child, and now already being treated for better life, this is writer's personal experience.

My 2014 Target!!

1. Get Anorexic (at least till 65 kilos)

Sample Pic:

2. Treat my hair

3. Facial Care

4. Make my hair and style like this picture:

5. Style and make up can be considered like the picture below also:

May i acquire my target within the middle of 2014. Spirit!!!!!

Is it wrong for being Pretty & Beautiful as a Boy?

Is it so wrong for being Pretty & Beautiful as a Boy?

Several years ago i questioned that "why Is it wrong, blamed,& shameful for being pretty and beautiful as a boy? Is it our freedom also to wear make up and being beautiful..? Not all boy being born to loved masculinity, sports, and machoistic.. Some of them have the tendencies of being touchy, feminine, and soft.. Its not because of weirdo or something.. Its just how their brain wired up since they were born.. Is it so wrong for boy to wish to become beautiful and pretty?? Why is it so wrong in the eyes of public if a boy loved make up?? Are we supposed to be equal men & women?? Then why i found unequality in our life?? If women were allowed.. Why men can't?? We (men & women) were created as equal as justice.. So it should be our freedom to act without the concern of others.. 

-The public accusation of beautiful boy is a non sense unless the boy being aggressive toward another men!

Period!-

                Dear Lavender's Writer

Goodbye Forever Dear Lavender.. I'm moving on..

Dear Lavender..  memoirs entry:

All my reason to truly love a woman genuinely has already gone.. maybe forever..the only woman that ever made me fell in love has been taken away forever..and i just barely can accept the reality now eventhough she's been taken over by somebody in holy ceremony since last year.. December.. My eternal obsession..gone.. Yes, We're not meant to be together in this world..

"And there's nothing else i can really do at all.."

If i ever will love a woman genuinely in the future? hmm..i dont think so.. For how long i wouldnt? i dont know.. Since you, after you and in the future, to be honest im just simply faking it 'the love for some woman' for the sake of social normality.. 

just An 'A' or sometimes 'B'

Dear Lavender.. This is My last wishful thinking for you.. May you live happily ever after with your love of your life, the one that you choose.. And no matter what my heart is broken to pieces.. I still pray for the best of your life.. Best of luck And congratulation dear Lavender..

I lay down and buried my true heart for one woman and it's only you..

Goodbye forever Dear Lavender..May you'll be loved and happily ever after with your soulmate.. God bless you.

Remember when i gave you this song "A LETTER TO ELISE by THE CURE" to you a long time ago.. And this also happened to be my last dedicated song to you Lavender..

Deep inside, my love for you will never change forever my Dear Lavender..

I'm Moving on..

Goodbye Forever,

DEAR LAVENDER.. My Memories..

The Cure - A Letter To Elise:

http://youtu.be/-AUCSkHCrwY

Little things Untold: My Nicknames

Setiap orang pasti punya Nama panggilan/nickname kan? Nah thread saya yg Satu ini saya dedikasikan untuk semua Nama panggilan yg pernah diberikan ke saya oleh orang2 disekitar saya Dan sekilas Latar belakangnya.. Sekedar catatan diary untuk pengingat di masa depan....

My Full Name: Bartholomeus Benaya Yehoida Stephen

List of my Nickname:
- Chiko / Chicko / Chico : Nama panggilan saya yg diberikan Oleh my 2nd Ex & kawan2nya
- Aya : Nama panggilan saya yg diberikan oleh sahabat2 kecil saya dan my first Ex (beberapa kawan baru juga ada yg memanggil saya dengan sebutan ini)
- Bendot : Nama panggilan saya yg diberikan oleh teman2 lama saya (teman sd-sma)
- Ben : orang2 yg tidak terlalu dekat atau baru kenal dengan saya selalu memanggil saya dengan nama ini
- Damien: Sekelompok teman SMP saya memanggil saya dengan nama ini. Tidak tahu mengapa, mungkin karena saat masa itu saya berstyle Gothic dan selalu memakai make-up, dan mungkin nama damien terkesan "gothic" bagi mereka
- Steven : teman2 saya sewaktu di USA memanggil saya dengan nama ini
- Benny : teman2 "expatriate & socialite" saya di jakarta memanggil saya dgn nama ini, mungkin panggilan ini lebih mudah dilafalkan oleh mereka yang berketurunan barat dibandingkan nama Benaya yang sangat Jewish dan sedikit susah untuk dilafalkan mereka
- Titut : keluarga2 dan saudara2 saya (kecuali orangtua saya) memanggil saya dgn sebutan ini
- Bunda / Bun : sebagian kecil (sangat sedikit, hanya beberapa orang) dari teman saya memanggil saya dgn nama ini
- si Brur : karena habit saya utk memanggil orang dgn kata "brur", beberapa kenalan saya memanggil saya dengan sebutan ini
- Curiosa : orang2 mengenal saya di dunia musik dengan sebutan ini


Will update the content as the life goes on....